I am angry.
A feeling of dissatisfaction is my companion these days.
I don’t feel at home in this new place and I hate the fact that there is no time to make it a home.
My eyes have forgotten to capture, my heart has lost its song of gratefulness.
I am caught in between – between the past and the future – and that’s one of the most unsettling places to be.
I am panicked and stressed.
I am not happy with how busy I am these days and how little time there is to actually live, but many days I don’t manage much further than falling into bed with heavy legs at night. I often can’t do much more than to embrace the fact that starting any kind of new job is hard.
I am afraid to move on.
My faith feels stuck these days between not wanting to go back but also without any clue on what comes next. I fear to have nothing left.
I have to embrace the fact that being lost doesn’t last forever. And to trust that those who seek will eventually find.
In the midst of life -in the struggle of mourning the past and awaiting the future – I have to embrace the present. It’s all I’ve got right now and I have the chance to turn it into a past worth remembering.
Writing for Five Minute Friday today.
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thinking of you.
Real, raw and honest. I love that you are facing your feelings with bravery, courage and determination. Seeing the perspective but unafraid of the mess in the middle. You are a warrior.
Thank you, Emma! I don’t always feel like a warrior…
I’m praying for you, Katha, as you embrace your in between. God has a purpose for you that might not be clear to you for a long time. But he has one, never fear!
Thank you, Anita!
It can be so hard to embrace the present especially when we feel stuck in the in between. It’ll get better…I promise! I’m over in the 6 spot this week.
Exactly! Thanks for the encouragement, Tara!
Oh, this spoke volumes to me! I hear you loud and clear. It is the distraction that makes us angry it is the busy that makes us overwhelmed and paralyzed. I am wishing you peace, calm and finding joy in your heart once again. Your FMF neighbor, #13
Thank you, Sabrina!